Wine, patience and energy needed..STAT

Is it too early for a drink????? If I could order an IV of pinot grigio to be delivered here by 4p, that would be swell. First one on it gets a gold star!

Oh.my.gaaaawwwd! If this week doesn't do me in, then kudos to myself for surviving. Myself because I have nobody else to thank but me, for getting me through this week. It has been entirely exhausting, stressful, annoying and downright crappy.
I don't love spending Spring break like this. I definitely don't like my girls to be subjected to turmoil like this. BUT, lucky for me, they hardly know anything is off. They've really kept busy and entertained themselves all week, needing very minimal interference from me. Yay and bleh!

Grandpa came back home on Sunday and made a phone call to his estranged broad on Sunday night that has set him back mentally and emotionally about six weeks. I won't go into details because they don't matter, but his Ex (we're going to call her that for the fact that legalizing that is in the process...although I don't understand why since he pines for her) and her deranged son-in-law bs'd, lied, manipulated him into false hope, made him question his faith in his own kids and completely and utterly hung up and left me to deal with a mess.
That mess has consisted of much doubt. Confusion. Tears. Anger. Aggression. Frustration. Heartbreak. And for three full days, I've played shrink. Although it was suggested again to me that he needs to see one. I kindly rebutted that I don't have anymore room on my plate to add a shrink right now. I found him a couple counselors when he first arrived and got settled, but his schedule is so packed with dr appts and therapies, and I still work...or have a job, at least, in addition to our family life. Which that schedule is no walk in the park, either! I just didn't have time in my life for a meltdown this week! And I know, that sounds so callous and selfish, but these ledge removal sessions are so involved and energy sucking and last for so many hours (or days in this instance)...and I really believed the worst was behind us...that I was completely unprepared.

This week I've got one of the biggest events of the year to finalize and put together before show time on Saturday.
The kids are home on their second week of break.
It's March. The event world is crazy busy and gets really unhappy to keep reaching voicemail!
3 OT sessions, 2 PT sessions, 1 speech session.
Math tutor.
Med checks.
Dance.
No husband on Weds.
Dentist appointment.
And payroll is due!
And this week dwarfs next week!!!

So! I'm venting...not regretting, just for the record! ;)

I expected him to have setbacks, but didn't expect a regression to come in at the magnitude of this one. And I sure as shit wasn't prepared for it the night we got home from our vacation. I'll be making to Total Wine soon....if I can energize myself to get out of the house after everyone goes to bed and my responsibilities are over for the day...to stock up for the next one. Because good lordy, I'm not sure if I can handle another week like this unmedicated!!

Random rambles after a vacation!

We went on a vacation, a much needed family vacation with just the four of us. A family vacation, big deal. Well, yah, it was a really big deal. The changes that have gone on over the last few months have put our family time on the back burner. So to go away together and not have to worry about anyone else's needs, cares, feelings, for six days was an absolute dream!
This vacation was unlike any other we've taken. We usually scoot to no schedule, don't look at clocks, and spend our days lazing in the sand. But last week we ran like each day was our last! We beached, biked, shopped, ate and Disney'd. Such a fun, albeit exhausting, week!
For one week we checked out of reality. And we enjoyed ourselves immensely. It reminded me how important it is to try and find time to make our family the priority.
Grandpa cannot be left alone for long, but refuses to be left alone at all. I used to have about 4 minutes to myself daily, after I dropped the kids off at school on my drive home, and most recently, he's decided he wants to go on that trek, too. Over our vacation I decided that upon our return, and once the kids are back to school, I'm going to make it more of a priority to be firm on a few minutes to myself each day, and try and carve out some family time each week. I'm thinking this will be by way of a bike ride. Or even if we all go into the backyard and enjoy some time in the yard, not talking about Grandpa's miseries, and investing that energy into our girls' well being. Their ideas, excitement and stories, their interests.
Grandpa loves to be involved in our lives. He likes the energy around here, he says. I need to restructure a few things to make him more a part of our lives, and less of our lives revolving around him!